Tuesday, February 26, 2008

I Found My Widgets!!

I found them!! YAY!!


Ok, I realize it isn't exactly normal for people to lose their widgets. For those of you who do not know, widgets are little clicky things on your computer (yes, this is the highly technical definition of widgets. Deal.) that give you fun things like a calculator and post it notes and everything. When I got my Mac, I had widgets. And they were great, right there down on the little menu strip all bouncy when you clicked on them.

Then they disappeared.

I don't know, y'all. I didn't DO anything with them. One day, they just weren't there. Poof. Gone. Bye! I had no idea what had happened. I searched my computer, and found where they were supposed to be, and I clicked there, and... no. No widgets. Then I looked online, and found a couple of things that may be a problem, but... No. Not my problem. Then I even asked S, because he's the smartest computer person I know, and even he didn't know. And 1. When S doesn't know, you really have yourself in a mess, and 2. Do you know the reaction you get when you tell someone you lost your widgets? That something that comes standard on your computer, that you really shouldn't be able to mess up, you somehow misplaced? Yeah.

So anyway, I have just been going along, widgetless, because I still have just enough self dignity to not be able to face the guys at the genius desk, because no matter how much I realize that "genius" may be a euphamism, I cannot face making an appointment, walking to the desk, and informing them that I lost my widgets.

Anyway, tonight I was doing something entirely different, and Firefox froze. And since I have no idea how to "ctrl alt del" on a mac (oh, to be honest after over two years a good 90% of the damn mac is a mystery to me) I was randomly searching through applications, and there they were.

My Widgets!

All back on the bouncy bar.


I Am Not Helping Myself, Here

So given the head exploding levels of Shit to Do that I described in my last post, I obviously need to do something about it. Be proactive! Have a plan! Accomplish things! And I am very, very Type A, meaning that in order to sleep at night I need to have a list. In fact, I have several! Several lists, each with a topic like "wedding", "Bar application" and "work", (also "law school" and "General life") and these lists have things on them to do, and in this way I can keep track of what has to be done and what has been done and then I don't wake up screaming. (In theory, because the other night Tom Cullen, from The Stand, he was in my dream and he tried to thwart an evil DJ and then there was a monster and... oh, nevermind.)

To make things worse, I have finally internalized the fact that Friday is the last day of February, and that means that THIS WEEK is March, and oh that is not good. Waaay back when I was Stupid I remember thinking things like, "Yes, and spring break is 6 weeks before the wedding, and that is a perfect time to finish things up because I won't have school." And then, when classes started, thinking, "Well this stuff isn't due till March, so there is lots of time!" And see, y'all, that was a lie, because it is March in a matter of hours and not one damn thing is done.

So this leads me to my current problem. See, making the lists makes me feel better, because then things feel more under control. Then I can relax, and watch TV, and read a book not for school.

But you know what? "Making a List" is not at all the same as "Actually Doing Stuff on a List."


So like today, where I have finally figured out how to accomplish everything I need to accomplish, provided I stick to the schedule and work every free minute, I am here at school....


That is not even ON the list.

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Sunday, February 24, 2008

Hanging In There

Back several months ago, when I would explain my "plan" for the early part of 2008 to people, the conversation would go something like this:

Well Meaning and Apparently, Quite Bright Person: "So, you're getting married in April."

Me, Stupid, and Also In Denial: "Yep!"

WMAQBP: "And finishing law school, right about the same time as the wedding?"

Me: "Yep!"

WMAQBP: "So then you are also moving to Texas, like, right in that time frame of just a few weeks, where you have to pack up all of your stuff and then unpack it all 3,000 miles away and deal with all the BS that comes from moving and also apply for the bar and start taking Bar classes?"

Me: "Yep!"

WMAQBP: "And you also are working, again? At a job that takes up even more time?"

Me: "Yes, and I really don't see where you are going with this."

Oh, y'all. I see where they were going with this. In theory, this did not all seem like such a bad, bad idea. Lots of things work in theory. It's like that crashing elevator jumping thing, where when the elevator is crashing all you have to do is jump in the air right before impact, and will be perfectly fine? In theory, that makes sense to me. In reality, I saw on TV the egg or whatever else get the everloving shit smashed out of it regardless of jumping or not, because "theory" and "reality" are not so much synonymous. Damn.

Really, things are going... ok. I mean, it's not like I haven't been perpetually stressed out from the moment I went to law school. It's just that now I see the light at the end of the tunnel, and it is really emphasizing how dark and frustrating the tunnel actually is, and I don't want to be in it anymore. At ALL. In 3 months, I will be done with law school, living back in Texas, with only bar classes to go to, and I cannot tell you how excited I am to be there.

Also, Guitar Hero. More on that in a minute.

But I have to make it through the tunnel first, so here is where I am with that:

Law School: Almost there. Almost. There. Almostthere. I have three major research assignments due this semester and I am not liking it at all. The good part is, the professors are all forcing us to turn in reserach, outlines, etc. early, so by the end of the semester I will have made at least "progress", which is more than I usually make during the semester.

Work: Hahaha. Don't ask. Work is hysterical and also? Annoying. I like the part-timeness and the temporaryness and the money. That's.... about it.

Moving: The Joker found a phenomenal location that we really want to live in, now we just have to wait until mid-March to see what they have open. This is really the first tangible thing that I have focused on and gotten really excited about. More news on it if we can secure a place there.

Life: Bar application: not yet done, driving me nuts. Taxes: Done, hate my county and state and cannot wait for the living in a state with no state taxes. Student loans: In far better shape than initially thought, found "missing" 30,000 dollars. (um, hee?). Discovered magical mystery benefactor who paid off all loans for masters degree. Then discovered that magical benefactor was actually self, and self's loan company, which paid old loans off when I consolidated a few years ago. Which was not nearly as exciting as magical benefactor, but also nice that I figured out where the money went.

Wedding: Oh my god y'all, I'm getting married. Like, REALLY REALLY REALLY SOON. We've gotten enough accomplished that the wedding has become less of a stressful "to do" list and is now an actual reality, and I am getting married, like soon. I'm excited. More specific wedding posts later.

Guitar Hero: My new obsession, this game has not helped so much with the time management but does wonders for the stress management. This makes me happy on the same level that American Idol and LOLcats do, so that's saying something. I am a Rock God. Srsly.

Ok, I have to stop procrastinating and get back to work, but I want to start actually blogging again so we'll see where this goes.

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